Thursday, November 10, 2011

Decisions, Decisions, Decisions...

Have you ever looked back on your life and wondered to youself: What have I done?

Have you? If even just for a minute?

Have you ever realized that a series of decisions are what have brought you to the place in life you are today, and no matter how good they were at the time, the long time goal was never recognized and cultivated. The astronaut you always hoped you'd be crashed and burned because in reality the Space Program wasn't looking for a Starbuck's barista.

Where you been, can't get you where you want to go.

I have had a life in construction, fast and easy money with the generally rude and crude who will pay $25/hr to sit there and take them yelling and smoking in my face without complaining. Then I thought the NYPD was where my heart was, but it really wasn't. I could kick myself in the ass sometimes for not humbling myself to conform to one of two of the industries but at the same time, I know me better than anyone. It would have lasted just that much longer before eventually my inner pysche argued with me about my self-worth.

I need my own. My own company, my own start. My own something in this world to get me independent by 40, because at 35 and unemployed it is really getting hard to breathe. I have reached a conundrum of following a life that will at least get me employed, or one that will build my path. YES! I am still young enough to build!

Life is not over. It is just beginning.

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